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    I know I can't say these to you in front of you, I can only bless you, because I didn't want to hit you when you told me this so happily. But i really can't believe it, today you have new boyfriend, my god! A boyfriend who is younger than you, and you even believe that you are his first love. Ok, you said he treated you very well, and you really like him, but it happened so quickly, suddenly, just a week, right? How can you do this, you need someone who know what love is, don't you remember that you've been hurt badly by your first bf? Because at that time you 2 both didn't know what is love. Now you find this one, younger than you!! How could he give you the safty sense, how can he comfort you when you get hurt again? I really can't accept it, it happened too suddenly!!

   I admit I'm too extreme, and you may think that I'm unreasonable, you may think that I control you too much, but I really have fear, I have fear that you'll leave me again, the second time!! Your heart is floating, I know many boys like you, I know you're really pleasant, but don't you know what you mean to me? Don't you remember what i've done for you? When he's gone, it was me who stayed with you, who comforted you, who sang" darling, it's not love " with you?? I always regard you the most important one in my life that my parents think that i'm lesbian!!! But nowyou find another boy, and told this to me first. You don't know my feelings, and I can't express them to you, because I love you, I don't want to see you leave me again, though I know this day will come sooner or later. You just hit me like this, and what you told me was just keep this secret for you, I've never betrayed you, I do everything that you tell me!! But you just go away, go away, without thinking about me, you always do things without thinking. Only when you feel bad, you will think of me. You say I'm better than a lover, you always tell me not to abbandon you, not betray you, but at last, it is you who always leave me. All right, I know I can't make you stay with me, I know you don't belong to me, you will go with a boy, it is sure!! You just destroy me, just destroy me, destroy me.

     亲爱的，今天你走了。在我睡午觉的时候，你在搬东西，虽然动作很轻，但我还是听见了，因为我根本没有睡。你说过你要走，但是从没想到会这么快；你说过你后悔了，但是无法挽回；你的一时冲动，造就了今天的结果，虽然我早意识到这天会到来的。我默默地看着你整理东西，不说话，没有对你说“不要走，不要离开我”，因为我知道，那只会让我们更伤心。但是不知道为何，当我看着你的时候，眼泪禁不住流下来，没有预见性的。我第一次哭了，3年来，我第一次为某个人流眼泪。我突然间想起了高一下学期分文理科时，我离开徐芳的场景。今天在这，上演了雷同的一幕，只是那时是我离开。我回忆着和你在一起的点点滴滴，想着你的好，想着我饿的时候，你煮面给我吃，盛好了端到我面前。她们老说你把我惯坏了，你每次都说：“我要永远对我们家妹妹好的”，我就大笑而过。我还记得，当你失恋时，我们一起唱《亲爱的，那不是爱情》，我们一起散步，一起改歌词。你走时对我说你放不下我，叫我要学会自己照顾自己，你会对我更好的，你保证。我只是想不通，为什么我爱的人终究要离开我呢？  

   亲爱的，你走了，虽然不远，但是我还是很伤心.我的眼泪仿佛在这一天流干了，但是没有白流，你还是爱我的，而且会更爱。

    你消失了吗？我最近很艰难，很失落，很出乎意料，你却不在。没有人可以帮我，我天天打出个笑脸给谁看，强行撑着干完这些。我感觉很累，付出没得到回报，虽然一切都怪我自己，但就是感觉不爽了。大家都说我现在话少了好多，都有点不习惯现在的我了。我也不知道为什么，我真的是没什么可说的，我天天拉着殷倩上自习，唯有和她一起，我才感觉好一点，但是我怕她哪一天又会离我而去，不要我了，虽然她说她以后一定要好好对我。

    我还是觉得家里好，在家里，我什么都不去想，有菡菡，哈哈，华华，旻旻和佳佳。但是为什么每次一回学校，我们就像是失去了联系一样，不再发短信，在qq上也不怎么说话。虽然怪我吧，我不喜欢在qq上主动说话. 也许吧，人相隔两地了，就会有种淡漠的感觉，都说我冷血，我也承认。我现在懂得了把什么话埋心里面,反正你不在，我也不知道对谁倾诉，我也不知道为什么，只愿对你罗嗦这些无聊的事，也许你是厌倦了，反正情况有很多种，我也不愿去猜了。我现在终于明白了，这是一个无期的等待，一种奢望再加幻想，这一切也只是我空虚的时候的假象吧，我只有在这一年里努力学习，我后悔我混了一年，结果我自己大吃一惊，我后悔没有看计算机书，后悔没有好好上体育课，结果我很让人失望，出乎他们意料之外。这学期，我决定改变，我要充实的生活，我不要再天天空虚下去，好像我一直是个笑话.

      oh...oh yeah...
           prego, esortati  consigli, bella!
     mi   hai  incontrato  raramente  in  5  miliardi  di  persone
            hai  buona  fortuna
            costante,  non  voglio 
       racconmandarmi  con  intenzione
            nessuno   si  può  compararlo  con  me  in  un'occhiata
           ti  ho  scoprita   lontano   che 

      non  sei  tenera,  ma  hai  un  tipo  di  fascino  

   non   sono   briccone,   solo   che  ho  tanta  bravura

       ho  individualità   che   ti  fa  essere  piena  d'emozioni
            oh  yeah 
        my   girl   non  sospettare
  ora   siamo  più  vicini  alla  frequenza
         quelle   che   vorrebbero   amarmi   sono  innumerevol

          ma   vorrei   amarti  

  non   è  solo   chance   chance
        my   girl   guarda   minuziosamente
          non   ho   quel   tipo   di   coraggio  
                da   soddisfarti
    non   è   solo   chance   chance
           prego, esortati  consigli, bella!
     sono  inquieto  e  distratto   appena   ti  vedo
          non   ti   dimenticherò
          loro  mancano  di  dolcezza
       e  non  bastano  umorismi  e   non  hanno  la  forza  fisica  
         non  si  possono   essere  pari  a  me
          sei  la  stella  innata
     solo   che   non   è  così  facile  per  me
           l'amore   non   è  un   gioco
  dammi  l'occasione   da  mostrare   per  farti  essere  piena  d'emozioni
             oh   yeah
         my   girl   non   sospettare
    ora   siamo   vicini   alla   frequenza
         il  mio  primo  biglietto  della  lotteria  sei  proprio  tu
           l'amore  è  il  premio  più   elevato
non   è    solo   chance   chance
          my   girl   vorrei  fare  una   data   con   te
   guidare  il  cagno,  girare  le  rive  del  fiume   e   mangiare   una  ciottola  di  mango   freddo
          ho   solo   queste   bravure 
               per  contentarti
  non   è   solo   chance   chance
      se  ho  confidenza,  sarò  sul  punto  di  commuoverti
            fino  a   piangere   a   calde   lacrime
        ora   apro  la  più   forte   potenza
                my   girl

古老的传说　留恋海湾的魔咒               una   leggenda   antica,  la  maledizione  del  Golfo  di  nostalgia
倾听的水声谁忘了挣脱　静止了时空       l'acqua  ascoltata,   chi   dimentica   di   sbarazzarsi,   il   spazio-tempo  è  statico
永恒的泡沫　浮在多情的哀愁               le   bolle   eterne    galleggiano   nella   tristezza   sentimentale
阳光下看似缤纷的花朵　盛开好坠落       i   fiori   che   sembrano   colorati   al   sole   sbocciano   proprio   per   cadere
亲爱的你　不该回头　那歌声　太多错    tu   amore,   non   dovresti   avere   guardato   indietro,   quel   canto   ha  troppa  attrattiva
跟着唱着　听着心痛　已是眼泪变成寄托   con   il   canto,   si   affligge   quando   ascolta,   le   lacrime   sono   già   diventate   la   dipendenza
亲爱的你　也不放手                         tu   amore,   non   l'hai   lasciato   ad   andare   via
别期待　无法去实现的承诺                 non   ti   aspettare   l'impegno   che   non   si   realizza   mai
就算　爱过                                   anche   se   hai   amato